wat are frens for ?

2004-04-07T03:16:00.000-07:00

yesterday too rush no time to write moi blog
so todae i am going to write wat i want to
write yesterdae ............. well ..................
i cant believe i CUT my hair oh my god
although it looks as if i did not CUT but
i really CUT it to those who did not believe
*whaaaaaa* so tired ................... rush
like hell for tuition ................ wanted my
life k.................so todae ar very stress
very hopeless wanted to cry during band
i feel that as though miss yeo had said
my feeling .............. i want to skip band
not becos i cant cope with the instuctor
but becos the two of them sickening ass
think so big of themselves ...................
it makes me want to slap them in their
faces but i wouldnt dare to however if
that dae were to come believe me i will
it for a thousand reasons i will do it
.............. stop toking about the sad things
lets tok about sumthing funny..............
lets tok about the lit thingy it was so funny
and gross but it was quite sweet though
i want to go out this sat but i no money ,
no time cant really go out ................. now
i also dun know wat to sae to you slowly
we become friends that do not tok ..........
if it is like that are we still friends .............
i wonder and wonder just do not know if
you can ............. please reply and ans this ok

2004-04-05T01:50:00.000-07:00

haixxxxxx .................. although after all did not take the thingy frm you maybe becos i did not dare to see you to tok to you knowing that you did not turn up this morn i was quite sad or maybe it might be a good thing or another ................. but i am really stress wondering if you read moi blog if you understand wat i was toking .................. wondering if you know how much i miss you how much i needed you by my side but you cant .............. knowing how much i love you yet you cant .................... my heart hurts ......................... see you yet cant tok to you ...................... knowing you are there but just cant go towards you .................. so near yet so far .................. if you were to read my blog hope that you ill know how much i miss you how much i need you and how much i want to be there with you .............. i guess when you are in skl it must be fun .................... how i wish to tell my friends in skl i really hope to be alone i realli hope to be able to tok to you just the two of us alone but yet .................... it is now sumthing impossible.....................

2004-04-04T04:03:00.000-07:00

wat you sae really hurt my heart your tone and very thing sound like you really are angry with me............ i am scared to see wat you have written on the letter however i want to know wat you have written ................ can you tell me if i shld or shld not read..........so stress i think i can guess that you are angry with me .........only you can make me cry so much but you never understand how i feel you hurt me not once not twice but a thousand a million yet you still dun understand................ yet you still dun know that my heart have been broken to a thousand million pieces that nothing can heal ........... only you but..................... i feel as if one dae dun tok to you cannot but you seems like you really dun wan to tok to me ................ wat do you expect me to do beg for your forgiveness ........... then you forgive me .................. if you want i can do it as long as you can name it................ please dun ignorn me

2004-03-31T05:47:00.000-08:00

hihi finally going in again ... sorry la do not mean to bring the thing up i know that i have a bad temper so very easy angry but i do not mean wat i sae so please forgive me for saying things that i should not sae......... anyay so long never tok to you i very sad and i miss you too i know that you are angry ........ but hope that you wont fall ill ......... i know that you lately fall sick and i feel that i am so bad ........ i hope to be your friend again but i wonder if you will agree ........ you so busy this few days call you never hear sms never reply ....... i guess i know that you are avoiding me ........ but i reaally hope to see you ........ are you still angry with me although i wrote to you letter but seem like you are not going to reply but .......... the letter that you lately just receive i jope that you can reply it becos i really want to tok to you ........ inside got somethings which i have written a fe times but you alays change the subject i really hope that you will tell me your ans if you allow me to or do not allow me to do so .......... although i hope very much that you will allow me but if you do not allow me to do so i will respect you ........... just hope that you will stop avoiding me becos very night i can hear the sound of my heart breaking wonder if you can hear it..........

2003-11-10T22:19:00.000-08:00

so long never sign in here already now can i feel so happy ..................... haixxxxxxxxxxx ....................... i remember that when in the pri school when ever there is holidae it is the best dae of our life but now it is different ............. the older you are holidae are worst .................... like now holidae is bad ................ at home nothing to do onli homework television and wat else can we do ..............i am very bored and there is no show to watch cant go out too often no money ................. haixxxxxxxxxxxxxx............. so boring ............... everydae at home i really want to go out then i can go and see her but the two of us like can not be able to see each other .................. i cant tok to her cant see her ................. at home wat can i do is to go on line and do sum things that i have never done before ................. so hoping that i can find thing to do gtg le wat to do ..................

2003-10-31T01:56:00.000-08:00

haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.............. yesterdae wanted to write but the thing spoilt ............... finally todae can use so happy............... todae we know wat class we are going next year although we went different class but still can go school together and can meet after school and play and gather................. i will miss everyone haixxxxxxxxxxxxx wats more the 2c1 alot same class as me hope i can have peace then ................ i really misses those days we had spent together and now we are going different ways .................... actually i wanted to killed myself if i get into normal but of cos i didnt becos i pass ................. hey we must keep in touchdont forget those happy times we had together and if can we can meet after school and go out together or wat.................................and we are friends forever and i will never forget all you .......................... and good luck to the class you all are in , hope lets us work hard together and can do well next year so buai will miss everyone ..............

2003-10-29T02:18:00.000-08:00

hey ............. todae i thought it was going to be a hard dae for me again but never did i know it wasnt ............... sir was so nice todae and todae he teachs me alone although i am scared but his face sometimes calm me down dont know why ........... he is part of the reason that i scared to go for band but the main reason is the pressure that the trumpeters can give ...............todae i thought sir was going to be angry with us but he didnt .........whew..............todae in the lab .......... although i know you had happened something but i fake fake like i dont know and i tried but best not to think about anything about you and i cant stop thinking ............... in the lab seeing you play with her i purposely try not to see and i kept toking to others ................... todae i saw her studing there although we did not tok but we knew wat was going on ............ i knew that her friends were there ow can i disturb them so i show hand signal to her hoping she understand and true enough she understand ............. thanks lord .............yesterdae i tok to you through msn and i told you about something rite ............. it is like saying you too becos you want be to tell you everything but you yourself wont tell me anything so why should i tell you i dont intend to tell you all so to avoid any quarrel but since you ask me to sae it out ........... so now i am saying it out to you do you understand .............

2003-10-27T02:20:00.000-08:00

haixxxxxxxxxxxxx...............todae she was sad and i too feel sad................... but i cant go to her and comfort her .............. all i could do is to see her from far and not able to be close to her .................... i try very hard to forget but why cant i do it ...................... maybe now is to late it cant be stop any more................. but you dont understand my heart for ............... the sec 4 ............... haixxxxxxxxxxxx .............. i miss you can you come back .............. and see us one that dae i cant go i feel go sad but i cant go and they so unreasonable i just cant go ................. todae we won the 1st again but why didnt they give us the medal for basketball but give us for netball ................. i rather the basketball win at least the five of us have ................. wats more the same class and same family ................ why cant they give a better one for mid - year ................haixxxxxxxxxx ............... going to end of skl le and i hope most of us can be back in the same class and i will treasure my time with my class more ................. anyway i think we can have a class outing and that would be great ................... so good luck la ................ and may the lord bless us ...................

2003-10-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

so happy ................. yesterdae we play until i can die ........... but it was really fun and i will never forget yesterdae .............. foreva and eva ................. well i am so black but i am happy even if i am to be black like hell ................. haixxxxxxxxxx................ however the time will not stop for us in fact they pass quickly when we have peaceful time but when we are sad or trouble it seem never emding and wat can we do to prevent or stop ................... i think the only way is to find a true fren and have a good chat with her of cos she have to be able to have to keep a sercret too........................ however it is difficult to find a true fren but it is not impossible to have one .................. if you really try hard enough .................... but i am lucky enough to have know so many true frens that i can tok to and not only that i am greatful for them and i am really happy and thankxxxxxxxx to those who go i will remember you all foreva .................

2003-10-20T03:46:00.000-07:00

hi.......... i miss you so many days never touch computer now can ar so happy ........... well i dont understand why no matter how hard i try to avoid her the more she cum out ...............hiaxxxxxxxxxx but i cant do anithing so helpless but wat can i do .............if you read this dont forget our promise and you now cannot reply moi letter .....................moi very sad la............but i know you have no choice so i also cannot blame you .............very sad .............. why sec 4 school end on the thur ......... make moi have no letter not only that...................... next time moi will miss them alot haixxxxxxxxx .............but moi can do nothing so only can think of them in my heart mind but cant see them ............. haixxxxxxxxxxx .......... gtg ...........buai hope can cum back and tok to you all bye

2003-09-23T06:49:00.000-07:00

hey... there ...well todae i have alot of things going on in school... i starting to avoid her as possible as to avoid embarrasssment ... well todae quite stressful but i sae eveything out to two pple ... those two pple out there who know please make it a secret ... it will be painful to suffer like this so ... hope you can help me ...well i am going to be mad ... pple keep asking me the same question again keep saying "who is it" i am really going mad being question like that ... but to the pple who ask me that question the truth is coming out so please be patient with me ... do not make life diffcult for me can ?? and the two pple who know the thing right i know it is not right to make the two of you to lie ... but my only wish is not to have any trouble in school ...or i will break down ....i hope you can understand how i feel .......thanks a million............=(well..... if only she will know about this thing life will be much easier .....but the fun the joy that she give me .....is just as much as the pain and the cuts that she give me ....very painful ....... and it is bleeding still........heal it do not rub salt into it ......)=